So in the last couple of weeks i've: eased up about school, gotten closer with a few friends, broken away from a few friends, bought 8 books and turned 17. All of which have been brilliant to say the least.

However, right at this very moment of 10:02 PM March 8th, i'm completely stressed and annoyed and just UGH. I wish this stupid Ancient assignment would go away and i wish the faces of those few annoying people in my life, would just disintegrate behind my eyes. I wish school would be over already and i wish my future was already in full swing. I just feel stuck in monotony.

It's sort of scary how you once saw someone as an inspiration, a source of talent and brilliance and now all you want is for them to take a good hard look at themselves and get back to you when they've finally grown the fuck up. It seems like everyone around me plays the victim card (of course this is hypocritical. because who doesn't play this card once in a while? i've definiately fallen into the 'boohoo i'm a victim' trap and it can be seen on my previous entries) and it's honestly the biggest cop out. I've fucked up. I've opened my stupid mouth when i shouldn't have and i take full responsibility. I know i've said bullshit that is entirely untrue/unjustified/unfair and i'm totally willing to take the blame for these situations. However, some people i know just don't seem to realise that HEY, YOU FUCKED UP A LITTLE OK. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR IT AND MOVE ON.